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    由人变猪的心路历程

       
    小的时候我妈一直跟我说,我是一只小猪,我怎么都不信。怎么可能呢?往镜子前一站,怎么看我都像人多过像猪啊.所以,我悠然自得地以人的身份快快乐乐的生活了十几年,相安无事。
     
    可最近我的自信动摇了,倒不是说我胖了,我经常提心吊胆的偷偷捏一下自己的脸或者摸一下自己的肚皮,发觉还是和以前一样,没什么肉.可是我觉得自己的心态变了,有时候就很堕落的想,猪还是比人生活得快乐的 ,那何必像人一样活得那么累呢?干脆就变猪了吧,我不愿做痛苦的苏格拉底,还是猪好,能时不时地躺在很舒服的泥塘里边打滚边快乐的嚎叫。
     
    但大家一定要相信我可不是这种很堕落而又没点斗志的人,因为这种想法也不是我所情愿的,它仅仅是有那么一瞬间在我脑里存在而又转瞬即逝, 比流星还快。我很抵制这种想法的,我想我不知道前世积了多少德这辈子才是人,怎么能就这样放弃了这来之不易的身份和地位了呢?当然不行!!!
     
    但最近我的确痛苦了,一个人在不知所措的境地无所事事。明明知道自己有很多很多的事情要去做,要去完成,可是在时间的流逝面前我却完全的呆住了,只想静静的看着一切轻轻飏飏的来,又义无反顾的走,而自己什么都不想干。甚至在一切都过去后也不想惋惜。我,究竟怎么了?
     
    人变猪,是由于有了太多的欲望,正如《千与千寻》中那样,千寻的父母就是被欲望撑饱而变成了猪。这也许是一条不归路,因为变成了猪后就往往容易满足,它们甩甩短短的尾巴,双眼一片灰蒙。这种灰蒙慢慢的把我的防线击溃,就像过去的莺歌燕舞摧毁一整座宫殿那样摧枯拉朽。。
     
    于是,我长出了长长的鼻子,努力寻找着世界上那些安逸而又腐朽的气息;我长出了短短的尾巴,把流光岁月卷起,随意抛走;我长出了大大的肚腩,愚顿地翻侧,漫不经心地把所有心事压碎,就可以了无牵挂了。
     
    于是,我在多少个阳光明媚的早上,睁着双眼躺在床上,不断说服自己保持这种舒服的姿势而再不动弹;于是,在多少个寂寞的黑夜,我努力做出思考的样子,脑壳里却依然空荡荡。
     
    我真的变猪了吗?还是我本来就是一头披着人皮的猪?我开始不忍心给自己答案了,,,
      
       

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